BuTtErFlY KiSsEs

2010-06-02T11:02:00.005+08:00

So it’s finally mid week, and eveyone’s going off soon, back to their roots for summer and then its me and my cousin who will be down in about 18 more days, in which I am trying to take at least a week off to shop and all with them

I must admit I have been partay-ing a lot, but I cannot say its hasn’t been fun, its has been loads of fun with my favorite people, I haven’t forgotten about my other friends I still make an effort to text them daily and call them they are a big part of my life
They should know who they are,

with all that said I never knew how much clothes I had till I realized I am using something different every time I go out , I know I know, a lot of you would know I have a lot of clothes
but the sad news now is that I have to pack some of them up as my cousins will be staying with us when they come down, I am really excited to see them, even if they are here for 2 weeks its still better than not coming at all, but I am planning on going there for winter maybe even Christmas, we’ll see how, maybe I’ll head to Miami too

truth be told I kind of want to stay in the states for good, its not that I don’t like Singapore, it’s just getting too expensive to live here with whatever I have here, I can go there and live more comfortably, and there is more places to go

2010-02-25T09:41:00.008+08:00

If you listen to nothing else that I say,
Hear me when I say this to you,
That little voice in the back of your mind,
Just do what it tells you to do,
I saw him there,
Cheers to himself then drink them down,
I should've just walked away,
But there was something about him,
Took a seat and said,

i think maybe just maybe i am in love

2010-02-18T12:10:00.007+08:00

The storm has passed and the suns slowly shining out, this is the time when I know all the decisions I made is worth it, its over and done and the pain and regrets is gone, I told you one day I’ll all fade away,

I am happy living my life as me, the new me, more confident and more aware of what love and life can do, even if it kicks me down, I’ll get back up and continue fighting till my last breath, one day I’ll let you know just what happen, I’ll have stories to tell when you feel down, I won’t let you stop fighting

this is me, raw and unedited, love me if you want the way I am or else just leave and don’t look back, I am headed for the future, you are my past, let is just remain as that

Farrah Faith Ibrahim

Have am awesome Thursday love love

2010-02-03T10:21:00.010+08:00

You make it impossible to get to your heart as soon as I'm close is when you close the door

You're pushing me far away and making it hard,I know what you're going through, been hurt before

So let down your guard, I'll show you love but you're still running like a rebel without a cause

It's so easy to go shut down and numb the hurt

Wish you could fight the urge but it's hard that you know

Just let me take your hand and show you I understand

2010-01-23T13:56:00.008+08:00

Believe or not the first month on the new year is almost ending,
Damn time needs to kinda slow down,

It’s been a good month so far, I am having the time of my life, with good company
Nice weather (most of the time), I need to go to the beach again, new responsibilities,
Renewed passion for what I do, damn that’s a lot of stuff,

I honestly thing I am feeling really pumped up to see how the rest of the 11 months plays out, nothing can get in my way, I am honest, so if you’re still living in denial it’s about damn time you pluck your head outta your arse and get with the program, reality sometime can suck, but hey its all about learning and adjusting.

Nothing and no one can piss me off or make me sad, cause the happy feeling is here to stay, so piss off

happy weekends love!

2009-12-29T09:55:00.002+08:00

Every girl needs a man

the kind that will treat you right as well as others

the kind that has enough respect for himself, family, and others

the one that will change for you to just be with you.

The kind that searches for you with his heart, the kind that can be trusted alone with a room full of many other beautiful ladies, the kind that won’t cheat on you cause he knows he’s got all he wants and needs already, the kind that’s willing to be your friend and lover, the kind that doesn’t mind calling early in the morning to say good morning and late at night to say good night; maybe even sing you a good morning and tell you a good night story or talk to you until you fall asleep.

The kind that will do anything for you, even if it’s just to buy your favorite kind of candy. The kind that will defend and fight for you, the kind that won’t ditch you for his friends when you need him the most, the kind that won’t leave you lonely and wondering. The kind that isn’t afraid to smile to his friends every time you’re around and tell them, “She’s the one.” The kind that appreciates you for the things to do for him, even if they’re small gestures. The kind that actually thanks you for the little love notes you leave him, the kind that is willing to wait for you when you’re falling behind, the kind that will actually open the door for you, take you out on dates once in a while and buy you flowers cause it’s a Wednesday. The kind that notices your hair when you just got it cut or done beautifully for him, the kind that reminds you that he loves you and that he’s happy with you in case you forget.

The kind that kisses your forehead when you’re down, the kind that tells you to be strong and not to cry, the kind that will go through think and thin with, and for you, the kind that just loves you for who you are.

i thought i found that guy, but i guess i was really mistaken, my bad!

2009-12-28T10:17:00.000+08:00

I've sang to you a thousand times

This is the last love song

I get the feeling that you want to fly

This is the last love song

I'm not gonna sit around and wonder why

This is the last love song

Cause mainly I don't know to say goodbye

So I'm doing it this last love song

2009-12-04T12:44:00.005+08:00

There is no love greater than the love of our parents

The woman who bores us, our first cry was music to her ears, knowing that she was responsible for our lives, she must have been scared out of her mind, but that didn’t matter, she knew she’d love us from then on.
Her daughters wants to be just like her, pretty intelligent, and loving, and her sons only dream about getting married to someone like her.

She’d bring them out, shopping, to the beach, church on Sundays, and having fun with them, discipline them when they were out of line, give them time outs when they throw their tantrums.

Making sure they had the best of everything they could afford, the best schools, the best clothes, the best homes and everything

The love of a father for his little girl, holding on to her on her first bike ride, pony ride, and first swimming class, wanting her to be a little girl forever, the hugs she gives him at the end of a hard days work, her smile even if her two front teeth was missing. Even at weddings or events where dancing was part of the celebration he’d let her stand on his toes while he danced just enjoying time with her. After that he’d sit her down and take his wife’s hands and they’d danced away like they were they only two in the room and on the dance floor. When there were outing that runs past her bedtime, she’d fall asleep sucking her thumb and over his shoulder you’d see her closed eyes, looking so innocent and at peace.

The first time she comes home screaming
“mummy, daddy look I got an A!”, or
“daddy look at my drawing of you mum ,my brother, my sister and me”
“daddy I got in daddy!”

Then comes the first time she says daddy I think I like a boy, grinning from ear to ear, eventhough he knows his little girl would get her heart broken, he smiles and just listen to her ranting about the boy, talking to him and going out with him till the wee hours of the morning, while he waits up for her huffin and puffing about what time it was and where in the world could she be.

And the expected happens, his little girl got her heart broken, all he can do it be there and trying cheering her up, wanting to take the pain away from her, but realizes that its part of the growing up experience,

So then he has his little girl and best friend back,

2009-12-02T10:55:00.009+08:00

finally i got to sit and upload half of the pictures i took over these 2 months,

its december, the month i have been waiting eeoons for,

i also makes me think of what i have acheived for this year, besides working, i made new friends and lost some old ones,

somehow, i just dont blog about personal stuff that much anymore, i mean somethings should not to published for the whole world to see,right?

i think that this year has taught me alot of people around me and also that i aint superwoman

eventhough somepeople fought the God of war,

dont get me wrong i am in a happy place, with my family and friends by my side i can do and conquer anything.

i wanna head to IKEA to get some stuff for my room and house,

i'll try bribing my brother to drive me there, and then to town where hopefully we can shop for presents.

i wanna dye my hair but then again i dont really know what colour i want it to be,

2009-11-24T12:44:00.003+08:00

christmas is on its way, and i havent done anything yet, with about a month to go i have so much things to get and get done,

FRET NOT! cause i have the bestest best friend to go with me and get my stuff

first stop IKEA,

then i got to get presents for everyone

and my christmas dress and shoes

then plan for the party on the 26th

and get my bestfriend a present for her birthday!

alot has been happening, with all that in mind i have to focus on work and

i have to get my ass to apply for school next year

i have so many photos of all the events happening that just wanting to upload them seems to take ages

well you guys have a good tuesday

2009-11-04T13:56:00.006+08:00

It's a beautiful thing, when it's shared between two

The most beautiful thing about is it's so much more than you.

There isn't nothing in the world like being with your lover

Nothing in the world like seeing one another

Happy with the one you need the most

It isnt hard to tell when it's something real

You can have the world all you want is them

Even when you're in a crowd and you spot it from a mile

When it's going wrong and you never give up

When you're on the phone and you never hang up

Even when you're feeling down, they can always make you smile

That's when you know love is worth it

2009-10-29T12:49:00.011+08:00

its the end of October and the begining of November

which means my birthday and Christmas are on its way just a little while more

i am excited and i am also excited for November cause thats when i actually apply for school

by the way i have made a new Facebook Account and my new email is

armigahermosa@hotmail.com, so do add me here,

since my first Account keeps getting hacked into!

Halloween is on Saturday, and i really don't know what to do, go out or just have a house party

maybe a house party would be good, so you guys are all invited

i dont have anything much to update tho

"your first love, you'll always remember, either you get married with your first love or try to forget them. but either which way that's the first time you fall in love and thats a feeling you'll definately remember"

2009-10-13T11:02:00.006+08:00

candle light and mood music

Champaign, its sweeter when i put you to it I take her by her hand and hold her tight,

but she don’t want romance, its Friday night.

She wants the stroke lights bright fashion, high life, high fashion, v.i.p section, dance floor full crowded music up louder bumping whole place is jumping something its what she wants, what she loves up in the club until the sun comes up.

Happy Tuesday everyone!

i love you babycakes

you know who you are!

2009-10-11T20:23:00.000+08:00

Get out of your head and into your Heart. Step away from the shore of safety and set sail into the Sea of Love's unknown splendors.Things change and dreams come true when you've finally decided enough is enough and you're not going to live like this anymore

2009-09-22T10:56:00.004+08:00

Don't want to leave it all behind.

But I get my hopes up and I watch them fall every time.

Another color turns to grey.

And it's just too hard

I'm leaving today

Cause I got to do what's best for me.

You'll be okay

Though you've been told anything goes when everything’s gone.

You'll risk it all and hope that you might find something inside
Something inside will ease your troubled mind.

I swore I'd never do this anymoreThere's always a heartache behind each doorWhen you try to fix a life that's shattered as mineThere's always a few little pieces you can't find

it hurts to much to let go but i have to do this so I don't have to live with this heatache again

i do not want to hurt like this ever again, its too much

2009-09-14T12:46:00.000+08:00

its good to laugh, and my aunt's sense of humour is too good not to share

A HUSBAND IS AT HOME WATCHING A
FOOTBALL GAME WHEN HIS WIFE INTERRUPTS,

HONEY,
COULD YOU FIX THE LIGHT IN THE HALLWAY? IT'S BEEN FLICKERING FOR WEEKS NOW.

HE LOOKS AT HER AND SAYS ANGRILY,
FIX THE LIGHTS NOW?
DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE
GE WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD?
I DON'T THINK SO.

FINE,

THEN THE WIFE ASKS,
WELL THEN, COULD YOU FIX THE FRIDGE DOOR?
IT WON'T CLOSE RIGHT

TO WHICH HE REPLIED,
FIX THE FRIDGE DOOR?
DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE WESTINGHOUSE
WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD?
I DON'T THINK SO

FINE, SHE SAYS
THEN YOU COULD AT LEAST FIX THE STEPS
TO THE FRONT DOOR?
THEY ARE ABOUT TO BREAK

I'M NOT A CARPENTER AND I DON'T
WANT TO FIX STEPS
HE SAYS, DOES IT LOOK LIKE I HAVE
ACE HARDWARE WRITTEN ON MY FOREHEAD?
I DON'T THINK SO
I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU.
I'M GOING TO THE BAR!!!!

SO HE GOES TO THE BAR AND DRINKS FOR A
COUPLE OF HOURS...............................

HE STARTS TO FEEL GUILTY ABOUT HOW
HE TREATED HIS WIFE, AND DECIDES
TO GO HOME

AS HE WALKS INTO THE HOUSE HE NOTICES
THAT THE STEPS ARE ALREADY FIXED.

AS HE ENTERS THE HOUSE , HE SEES THE
HALL LIGHT IS WORKING

AS HE GOES TO GET A BEER, HE NOTICES
THE FRIDGE DOOR IS FIXED.

HONEY, HE ASKS, HOW'D ALL THIS GET FIXED?
SHE SAID, WELL, WHEN YOU LEFT I SAT
OUTSIDE AND CRIED.

JUST THEN A NICE YOUNG MAN ASKED ME
WHAT WAS WRONG, AND I TOLD HIM..

HE OFFERED TO DO ALL TH E REPAIRS, AND
ALL I HAD TO DO WAS EITHER
GO TO BED WITH HIM OR BAKE A CAKE.

HE SAID,
SO WHAT KIND OF CAKE DID YOU BAKE?

SHE REPLIED,
HELLOOOOO..
DO YOU SEE BETTY CROCKER WRITTEN
ON MY FOREHEAD?
I DON'T THINK SO!

2009-09-10T21:36:00.001+08:00

How do you know if the person that you like is the one? Would you give up everything just to see what happens?

Somehow whatever I am feeling to me it feels right, I am not giving up my life or anything but I don’t get it how can something that feels so right somehow be so confusing, what happening, hell I am getting confuse just thinking about it

How can it hurt yet feel so fucking right man?

I have found peace with looking at furniture and décor tips, it amazes me that every year my room and my house looks different, but I like change its good

I still think that I left my soul in the states and my body came home, don’t get me wrong I love Singapore its where I grew up and all, but just that in the states nobody knew me, I could start afresh, they don’t know what baggage I have, but sooner or later they’ll find out

“There’s a story behind everything, how a picture got on a wall, How a scar got on your face, Sometimes the stories are simple, and sometimes they are hard and heartbreaking. But behind all your stories is always your mother’s story, because hers is where your begins.”

2009-09-10T12:25:00.000+08:00

A lil something i received in my email from my dear ol' aunt!

An old country preacher had a teenage son, and it was getting time the boy
should give some thought to choosing a profession. Like many young men his
age, the boy didn't really know what he wanted to do, and he didn't seem too
concerned about it. One day, while the boy was away at school, his father
decided to try an experiment. He went into the boy's room and placed on his
study table four objects.

1. A Bible.

2. A silver dollar .

3. A bottle of whisky.

4. And a Playboy magazine .

'I'll just hide behind the door,' the old preacher said to himself. 'When he
comes home from school today, I'll see which object he picks up.

If it's the Bible, he's going to be a preacher like me, and what a blessing
that would be!

If he picks up the dollar, he's going to be a business man , and that would
be okay, too.

But if he picks up the bottle, he's going to be a no-good drunken bum, and
Lord, what a shame that would be.

And worst of all if he picks up that magazine he's going to be a
skirt-chasing womanizer.'

The old man waited anxiously, and soon heard his son's footsteps as he
entered the house whistling and headed for his room.

The boy tossed his books on the bed, and as he turned to leave the room he
spotted the objects on the table.

With curiosity in his eye, he walked over to inspect them.

Finally, he picked up the Bible and placed it under his arm. He picked up
the silver dollar and dropped into his pocket. He uncorked the bottle and
took a big drink, while he admired this month's centerfold.

'Lord have mercy,' the old preacher disgustedly whispered. 'He's gonna run
for Congress.'

2009-09-09T12:26:00.000+08:00

It’s like spending time with you, just doing absolutely nothing
That makes me happy
When you’re at work putting on TV shirt, and I love it

It's the smile of a child, its your eyes, its your hair
It's the touch of your skin that’s what gets me there
It's also enticing waking up from a nice dream
To a beautiful morning with you by my side, that’s nice
It’s like walking through the sprinklers, smelling every
flower one by one ,makes me happy
it’s like Telling me you love me and showing you love me baby

2009-09-03T19:12:00.010+08:00

You got me counting the seconds

It happens every time

I'm waiting for the moment we can sit down and talk for a while

And every time that you're near me my heart is running away

How can I tell you when words don't come easy and there is so much I'm trying to say

I wanna know that love will surround us and you'll share it with me every day

Tell me you'll care for me now and forever I'll give anything to hear you sayt

hat I'm more than a friend

I'm gonna try in the future not to live in the past

I guess that I was a dreamer if I thought it could ever last

But every time that I see you you bring me out in the sun

How can I hide it when we are together

I just know that you're the only one

the weekends are nearing!

whoop-t-bloody-doo!

2009-09-02T18:02:00.001+08:00

One day in your life
You'll remember a place
Someone touching your face
You'll come back and you'll look around
You'll remember the love you found here
You'll remember me somehow
Though you don't need me now
I will stay in your heart
And when things fall apart
You'll remember one day
When you find that you're always lonely
For a love we used to share
Just call my name, and I'll be there

2009-08-31T14:24:00.000+08:00

it was nice having old friends comming together sitting down talking about the old times
thinking how far we've come with each other,
remembering the good ol' times, and cringing at some of the things we use to do
and thinking of bad times, and feeling that we'd always be there for each other no matter
which part of the universe we are at.

advice we give one another, hugs we give and receive, plans we all made and maybe some did not turn go as plan but it happens, the times where we are proud of one another and all the rest

it made me realise we all grew up together and look where we all are now.
its just makes me tear how much we've all acomplish and soon we'll be going off to start and excel in our future and getting married and starting our own little family

let's hope and pary our children don't do half the things we did man!

its a start of another week, have a good one!

2009-08-26T19:07:00.013+08:00

some pictures from the america trip and daddy's birthday!

works been too hectic and you know what i feel that these days i look forward to comming home!

home, shower, and relax the rest of the day.that's my life these days, so just cell it!

2009-08-26T16:08:00.001+08:00

You leaned over and kissed me
And the ups and worlds of you and I collide
There we stood quiet plea, silent plea side by side

'Oh beneath all of the craziness and the laughter
We were wondrin' if tomorrow
If we could make this real

its mid- week lovelies!

2009-08-12T14:24:00.000+08:00

a friend:
A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts.
A person whom one knows; an acquaintance.
A person with whom one is allied in a struggle or cause; a comrade.
One who supports, sympathizes with, or patronizes a group, cause, or movement

to me having friends is like being comfortable with me,a best friend is like fur coat during winter, it keeps you warm(maybe PETA and fur arent best friends)

so we were all watching my cousins wedding tribute to her all her pictures and my grandmother kinda teared, so did the whole bunch of us,i have never really see my grandmother teared like that before
hanis you need to see it soon

people say if you let something or someone go and they somehow come back in your life they belong to you, somehow i've always believed that which is weird cause' i am known for not showing affections or emotions well when it comes to relationships but somehow i am learning bit by bit, i guess when you've been hurt one to many times, its becomes a habit,

but you know what at least i am trying my luck out at love, which is better than not trying at all

so here is something i heard awhile ago
getting hurt sometimes mean that you're one person closer to finding out who you really are and the right one(i know that sounds corny but hey who cares)

ciao bella

2009-08-07T12:33:00.000+08:00

Funky fresh dressed to impress
Fresh off that happy juice, tipsy and flirtin
When my girls said Farrah dat shorty looking at you
(who me?) yea you (yea)
So I'm ready
Making my way down to the dance floor
Sexiness like this hey what more could you ask for
Starting to think I shouldn't've worn these shoes
What's the price we pay
For looking this way

2009-08-03T17:13:00.003+08:00

vacation was awesome, the wedding was fun, with the dancing and everything

everyone was so nice

i miss the cousins already,

hopefully they come down next year!

pictures will be posted soons

2009-07-13T13:53:00.003+08:00

if you feel alone, I'll be your shoulder

With a tender touch, you know me so well

Somebody once said, it's the soul that matters

Baby, who can really tell,

When two hearts belong so well

Maybe the walls will tumble and sun may refuse to shine

When I say, I love you baby,

you've gotta know that's for all time

Baby you gotta know that's for all time

For this good love undeceivingI'll go anywhere just as long as you are there

Baby, you can never go

baby, you gotta know see that you never go that's for all time

i be lovin' you all time boo!

xoxo!

2009-07-10T09:06:00.004+08:00

to think that in a couple of days i'll be gone, and seeing my cousins!!!!

stoked!!!!

i havent started packing yet but i have most of what i need to bring, just gotta get somemore stuff

hanis help!

2009-07-09T13:02:00.000+08:00

Smile though your heart is aching

Smile even though its breaking

When there are clouds in the sky, youll get by

If you smile through your fear and sorrow

Smile and maybe tomorrow

Youll see the sun come shining through for you

Light up your face with gladness

Hide every trace of sadness

Although a tear may be ever so near

Thats the time you must keep on trying

Smile, whats the use of crying?

Youll find that life is still worthwhile

If you just smile

FOR YOU M.J WILL ALWAYS BE LOOKING UP AND SMILING!

You were the one and only,the greatest,
I grew up listening to your tunes and I still do, your lyrics has so much meaning and soul to it
Your songs brought people from all over together, your performances with emaculate,
Its true that the world has lost its best entertainer, with everything good or bad
this songs represents you, your children will be in all of our prayers
now you are up there with the angels looking and watching over everyone!

2009-07-01T10:42:00.004+08:00

Guarded cause I have been hurt so bad, don’t want to go back to that anymore
More and more I love you each day, I could wake up to you everyday, for the rest of my life, it’s sad that you don’t even know how I really feel. Or do you?

I want to be the girl that always smiles, is always happy and won’t let anything downfall in life get in the way, what happen to that girl?
The girl who actually cared about others feeling,
I guess that girl has left the building

just bare with me hear, its just one of those days that no matter what you do you just feel like crap!

honestly to say the least I have nothing that is keeping me here, except for family, so I am going to see where I can go, I don’t want to stay yet I am scared to leave my comfort zone, its better this way isn’t it?

Has anybody ever felt this way, Has anybody been ripped apartAnybody give everything to the one they loveAm I the only one left behind, Am I the only one who hates goodbyesGod I know this can't go on forever

I was the one who gave up everything for himWhen no one would listen I heard every word, ohIt took me so long to see that maybe I am better off alone

2009-06-26T13:14:00.003+08:00

Your love is magical, that's how I feel, I have not the words here to explain

Gone is the grace for expressions of passion but there are worlds and worlds of ways to explain to tell you how I feel
I am speechless

That's how you make me feel though I'm with you I am far away and nothing is for real

When I'm with you I am lost for words, I don't know what to say My head's spinning like a carousel, so silently I pray helpless and hopeless, that's how I feel inside

Nothing's real, but all is possible if God is on my side

When I'm with you I am in the light where I cannot be found It's as though I am standing in the place called Hallowed Ground

Speechless, that's how you make me feel

I'll go anywhere and do anything just to touch your face There's no mountain high I cannot climb, I'm humbled in your grace

Speechless, that's how you make me feel

But in your presence I am lost for words Words like, "I love you."

2009-06-26T08:59:00.003+08:00

farrah fawcett and Micheal Jackson

one of a kind, great people, and who'll always be remembered!

the original Charlie's angel and the King of Pop!

2009-06-25T14:05:00.002+08:00

I've been wandering around the house all night wondering what the hell to do

I'm trying to concentrate but all I can think of is you well the phone don't ring 'cause my friends ain't home

I'm tired of being all alone got the tv on 'cause the radio's playings ongs that remind me of you

Baby when you're gone, I realize I'm in love days go on and on, and the nights just seem so long

Even food don't taste that good, drink ain't doing what it should things just feel so wrong, baby when you're gone

I keep driving up and down these streets trying to find somewhere to go

Yeah i'm looking for a familiar face, but there's no one I know this is torture, this is pain, it feels like I'm gonna go insane

I hope you're coming back real soon, 'cause i don't know what to do

I don’t understand why can’t I shake this feeling off, its been months.
I let you go and somehow you came back, I believe it , yet I don’t want to be disappointed again

weekends starts tomorrow!!!

i am all excited!

2009-06-24T12:31:00.004+08:00

Good morning, I know I woke up to the most beautiful weather wind , cold and it almost made me fall right back to sleep again, I had to literally drag myself out of bet to hit the showers, but instead I put on my robe and sat in the hall chillin’ for a while before hitting the showers

I had a date with the bestfriend last night, we caught Transformers 2, and to people whom don’t already know this, that isn’t my cup of tea, I was a little surprise that I actually enjoyed it. And man was megan fox really hot la

so after the movie, we met up with my brother and cabbed home, strange as it was I guess the brother, the bestfriend and yours truly are currently all in the same boat

I have been feeling rather lethargic lately, hectic days, early nights and morning, as my grandmother is still staying with us, since the doctor advise us that she cannot be left alone for the next six weeks, after her fall, so poor thing my grandmother, having her at home just reminds me of when I was younger, and it has open my eyes to a whole lot of things,.

just look at her la!

2009-06-23T11:03:00.004+08:00

Have you ever felt like, your the only one in love in your relationship?

And as hard as it was to let you go, you knew it was the best thing for you

Well that time has come for me, I got to move on

Sometimes we want things that maybe not be right for us.

When your in Love You tend to look over the obvious.

Your not changing and I know that you love me but,
this thing isn’t going the way I planned

As bad as I want you to stay I just cant keep on going this way,

there are a couple of issues I refuse to ignore

You say one thing, and you do another

And I m realizing you don't want me on your shoulder

You think material things is what I need

But all I ever wanted was you

Just a little kiss, just a little hug

Now I m realizing that this isn’t your kind of love

See there's a part of me

That doesn't want you here with me

That's a part of me That wants to stick right with you

But it seems like you don’t want to put up a fight

And why should I even try?

2009-06-22T14:33:00.000+08:00

This is out of control, who in their right minds would call a person whom they barely even know and give them a tongue lashing, just cause they don’t have the guts to control their damn boyfriend.

I mean c’mon lets all face facts, you didn’t just do it once you did it countless of times, your boyfriend is an idiot, thinking he such a big fuck when all he honestly is, is just some random small fry. He is lazy and just prey on girls for their money and their time and affection, my friend was naïve enough to be his friend, yet she was very badly mistaken for her intentions.

So to this lady who has been harassing my friend and f**king her with all your insults and rubbish, quit acting all innocent and shit, cause quiet frankly your to blame for the whole mess, or you’ll regret it
To avante, you’re just like the rest of them, who do you damn well think you are to put restrictions on my friend and have the audacity to tell her that she means nothing to you, you bloody worthless piece of chicken oh wait you ain’t even that good, you f**king worthless piece of shit

with that off my chest, I can now relax and have a breather,

the weekends were awesome, it was quality time spend with the loves
coffee, birthdays, father day, hell it was a smashing week I can’t wait to see what this weekend has in store for me, hopefully I’ll be really surprise in a good way!!!!
.*fingers crossed*

it'll all get better in time

2009-06-19T15:37:00.004+08:00

everyone comes with baggage, thankfully Louis Vuitton comes with a 42 piece

except them love them and cherish them

no matter the circumstances

happy weekends love!!!!

i know i am definately gonna enjoy mine

xoxo!

p.s: if you're reading this apperciate the text

2009-06-18T07:47:00.003+08:00

I've just seen a face,I can't forget the time or place,

where we just met
he's just the boy for me,and I want all the world to see

We've met,

had it been another day

I might have looked the other way,and I'd have never been aware

But as it is I'll dream of hin,tonight,

Falling, yes I am falling,And he keeps calling

Me back again.

I have never known,the like of this, I've been alone,and I have missed

But other boys were never quite like this

2009-06-13T12:03:00.000+08:00

This is a little more personal then the previous one,
No names are going to be used here maybe with a few exceptions.
All these years I have been leaning on hanis for a lot of things, she’s as dear to me as my own sister, but some things only best of friends would understand.

Hanis and myself are, no matter what especially when either one of us is down sad and just needs a shoulder to cry on or a listening year, can sit watch a movie laugh together not say anything and yet when we leave and go our separate ways, feels like it was the best time ever.
I used to think that having a lot of friends was nice cool and all that mambo jumbo, but if this year has taught me anything at all it was that quality is key someone said that to me once.

Ryan on the other since that fella has his back injured can’t come out and play with us.
Has been a good listening ear, with the both of us just needing someone to talk to, I mean you’ll always be a good friend, I mean who will you literally talk to till some god forsaken hour just cause he’s got some things he needs to vent right?

Haziq has been a definitely great best friend, with laughter and jokes, he makes me and Hanis smile when we’re down or need a laugh or two. But unfortunately he’s in Hong Kong working so when he does get back he’ll either call to bring us out or clubbing
What a funny friend I have

all my life I have been living under spotlight being who I am, wanting to some out of my shell was even harder. Yes I admit that I made a shitload of mistakes who hasn’t right?

I never once dreamed that the people I meet along my journey in life could be that bad, I mean I always and I damn bloody well mean always try to be and treat people that way I want them to treat me, it was a real hard slap in the face when I had to experience what I did, yet I forgave, and thankfully I did, cause to me I gave as many chances as I damn well possibly could and all that individual did was take and take, so I have been slowly letting go and I feel damn good about it. Yea it was nice for a while, but how individuals have the audacity to use trust or feeling unappreciated or left out for a excuse or a reason for why they did what they did.
I don’t blame them

I have no point in writing an entry I just need to let some things go.
What more could I possibly ask for when everything is just perfect in my eyes and in my world

2009-06-13T11:35:00.003+08:00

I swore i'd never get involved and said i'd never ever fall in love again

cause it hurt me once and I wouldn't let it hurt me again
Since the times have changed it's different now cause I’m hypnotized by you and wondering how I fell into your arms,I was captured by your charms and oh well here I go falling in love again

i guess sometimes, you just can't help the feeling anymore!

xoxo!

2009-06-12T12:27:00.000+08:00

Here are some random things about me
(cause Tanya la she was being random with me so I’ll share):

I hate cheese
I love cooking
When I am pissed /hurt/annoyed/and have too much on my mind I clean
I love pasta
I love coke
When I am alone or bored my imagination goes wild and I stone
I am quite when I am furious at people
I get hyper on sweet stuff and I’ll be crazy
I like to disturb my mum
I make fun of my dad and paint his nails
I like to have the pool all to myself
I will burst out laughing randomly
I think I look cute with the puppy dog face(which when I was 5 was cute now it aint)
I curse like hell( tryna cut down on it)
I take the quizzes on facebook out of boredom
I am in love with the Bentley sports
I buy clothes every time I am out
I have so much shoes which I rarely wear
I talk a lot
I like to annoy my brother when his playing his PS3
I tickle my sister a lot till we both end up on the floor
I love shaking my ass at everyone
I see my cousin everyday and irritate him
when I am alone I blast the music and go into my room
I want a beach front house
I call hanis when I get a bad dream (even if its at 3in the morning)
I like guava
I suck at rockband, I look like a loser playing it
when I drink too much,I’ll get home and fall on my bed and wake up 2 hours later and eat macs
when I see someone with a tattoo of his/her name on their body
I tell my friend that when the get old and senile they’ll look in the mirror and say
“oh that’s my name”

so by now I think all of you think I am same damn ass mad/crazy womanbut we’ll that’s the way I enjoy my life with my friends and family

enjoy the weekend ladies and gentlemen!

2009-06-10T21:08:00.003+08:00

How many times do we have to go thru this just to end up disappointed again?
Shame on you if you fool me once, shame on me if you fool me twice
You’ve been a pretty hard case to crack should have know better but I didn’t

now I am lost with no where to go. How could I think that this time would be different
I felt the difference but now I am so confused

I’m gonna lay low for awhile
Thanks to ryan and hanis you guys rock la!ryan get better quick la then we can go out and have fun la bullock!

June is the only month in which there are so many birthday especially in my family
My cousins, my brother, fathers day, my granddads birthday, my couins and brother told me what the want hahahha

This hasn’t been the best week but I am making the most of it, or at least I am trying
I cannot wait for july now I’ll be with more family celebrating happy moments with them

i am in love with this tatt!

xoxo!

2009-06-09T09:41:00.002+08:00

You used to talk to me like I was the only one around.

You used to lean on me like the only other choice was falling down.

You used to walk with me like we had nowhere we needed to go,

Nice and slow, to no place in particular.

We used to have this figured out we used to breathe without a doubt.

When nights were clear, you were the first star that I'd see.

I used to reach for you when I got lost along the way.

I used to listen cause' you always had just the right thing to say.

I used to follow you,never really cared where we would go,

Fast or slow, to anywhere at all.

I look around me,and I want you to be there'Cause I miss the things that we shared.

Look around you.It's empty, and you're sad'

Cause you miss the love that we had.

Can we get this back?

Can we get this back to how it used to be?

have a good week y'all!

xoxo!

2009-06-03T13:21:00.003+08:00

Tonight, out on the street out in the moonlight

and dammit this feels too right

It´s just like Déjà Vu

Me standin’ here with you

So I´ll be holdin`my own breath

Could this be the end?

Is it that moment whenI find the one that I'll spend forever with?

You can´t give up!

Lookin´ for that diamond in the rough

You never know but when it shows up

Make sure you're holdin'on

Cause it could be the one, the one you´re waiting on

i like finiding lyrics or saying or even quotes about how my day or life has been

its something i do and pictures are alot more interesting

its mid-week again.

is it me or is this year super fast

it's already mid year

xoxoxs!

2009-06-02T09:52:00.004+08:00

Never in my life have I been so happy until now
I have never felt so blessed, I really really thank god for all that he has blessed me with

Courage, sacrifice, determination, commitment, toughness,heart, talent, guts. That's what little girls are made of; the heck with sugar and spice.

When things go wrong as they sometimes will, When the road you're trudging seems all up hill, When the funds are low and the debts are high, And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit, Rest if you must, but don't you quit. Life is queer with its twists and turns, As every one of us sometimes learns, And many a failure turns about, When he might have won had he stuck it out. Don't give up though the pace seems slow--You may succeed with another blow, Success is failure turned inside out--The silver tint of the clouds of doubt, And you never can tell how close you are, It may be near when it seems so far; So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit--It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.

I haven’t given up, and hopefully you won’t too
I’ll be here to hold your hand and guide you thru the storm

2009-06-01T13:44:00.004+08:00

You don't have to move, you don't have to speak

lips for biting.

You're staring me down, a glance makes me weakeyes for striking

Now I'm twisting up when I'm twisted with you

brush so lightly and time trickles down,

I'm breathing for two squeeze so tightly.

I'll be fine,

you'll be fine.t

his moment seems so long

Don't waste now, precious time

we'll dance inside the song

isnt he just so sexy!!!

2009-05-30T22:43:00.002+08:00

You ask me why i change the colour of my hair

You ask me why i need 32 pairs of shoes

You seem to ask me y i gotaa lotta things

Its just a chick thingYou atta let it go

You try to understand but u dont have a clue.

You ask me why i gotta play so hard to get

You ask me to play it cool not to make you sweat

You want some kinda explanation i can giveI

ts just a chick thing that your messin' with

To me its black and white but to you its not gettin' through to you

2009-05-29T13:55:00.006+08:00

I know you’re trying to make me happy,

And I know you’re doing it you’re way,

And I don’t always make it easy

To know the perfect words to say,

If you wanna give me what I want,

Listen, ‘cause I’m gonna tell you what I need so bad.

If you wanna give me what I crave,

Hold me so I can feel your love.

When the craziness begins to get to me,

Just need a hand to hold, just be that somebody.

It’s your tenderness that’s gonna make it right,

I want a piece of your heart, not a piece of your mind

i need new shoeeessss!

happy weekends y'all

xoxo

2009-05-27T13:04:00.001+08:00

A letter to a dear friend

Honey you’ll always be the one that I run too when the going get tough,
But that doesn’t mean that I have to be selfish and not let you live your life and make your dreams a reality.

You’re a precious gem, the unique one that I found thanks to my lucky star, I don’t need so many friends, having you is enough (ok maybe its more than I can handle). But you have your own dreams and your own life, so if leaving is really what’s in your best interest then go and don’t look back, and even if you do remember the happy times and not the sad.

Don’t worry we’ll always keep in touch maybe I’ll go to you and sometimes you come to me. There will always be the connection that I can’t have with anyone else, the text that you sent me last night made me tear when I read it this morning (who ask you text me when I tell you I am going to sleep). You have to stop worrying about me and haziq, we’ll be fine and that a promise, I admit that things won’t be the same I can’t meet you as often as we’d like nor can I call you 10 times a day, but always remember that I’ll be thinking of you and hoping that you’re safe. I’ll check up on your family when you’re gone. See how mum doing and sister also.

So you do what’s best for you and I’ll always support you and you make me proud!

p.s if you find a hot boy make sure he’s got a good looking twin/friend ok!haha

I love you babe!

2009-05-26T11:57:00.005+08:00

I had a wonderful weekends, thanks to the family and friends

So Friday I was bored rotting at home so I decided to call Hanis and ask her what time she ended work,And not exactly surprising but she was at home and she wasn’t feeling too good, so doctor faith rushed over and well she really looked pale, so we chilled and I was bored cause the bestfriend wasn’t giving me the attention I wanted and so I played and fiddled with everything in her room

So she finally gave me attention and brought me down to 7-eleven to get munchies and we watch Taken together…..
UBER AWESOME I tell you!
I wanna watch it again

I left her house at around 10.45 and picked my brother up from near-by and headed home
But we had plans to head out again once we got home and got hold of the keys to the car and off we were roaming the streets

Saturday was just work and then headed to the Singapore Arts Museum for an event of Mal singing and rapping.

Sunday was spent at home chilling and watching the tv

Did it seem to disappoint you

Living alone?

By the banks of your dilemma

Out of control

No one seems to give the answers that you wanna hear

What you'd give to find a welcome here

Did it come naturally?

You a million miles from home

When you tried so carefully

To live a life that's not your own

Always remember that it wasn't that long ago

I stilled the oceans

I moved the mountains

To say I love you

have a good tuesday y'all

xoxo

2009-05-22T11:16:00.001+08:00

Sometimes life suck, and you don’t get what you really yearn for
Either that or the timing is just messed up
For me I’d rather look positively and say that the timing wasn’t right.
I believe in second chances, I know mine will come, when the time is right
Because I got a good feeling about it
And the man up there is smiling down on me too
So I’ll sit and be patient..

Thanks for all that have been there, I love you many many
Hanis I am excited for tomorrow la….
Woohoooo!!!!!

I finally got my results
And
And
I PASSED!!!!
Hell I am over the moon…Thanks BIG G!

have a kick-ass weekend y'all, i know i will!!

hugs and kisses!

2009-05-21T12:07:00.002+08:00

To kiss and tell, it's just not my style.

But the night is young, and it's been awhile and she broke my heart,

broke it right in two,and it took some time but I'm feelin' like I'm finally ready to find, somebody new

Maybe make a little magic in the moonlight

Don't wanna go too far just to take it slow

But I shouldn't be lonely in this big old world

I wanna kiss a girl

It's that moment when you start closin' in

First you're holding back, then surrenderin'

It can start a fire, light up the sky, such a simple thing.

Do you wanna try? Are you ready to say good-bye to all these blues?

'Cause maybe tonight it could turn into the rest of our lives

2009-05-20T13:39:00.003+08:00

11 hints for life:

1. It hurts to love someone and not be loved in return.But what is more painful is to love someone and neverfind the courage to let that person know how you feel.

2. A sad thing in life is when you meet someone whomeans a lot to you, only to find out in the end that it wasnever meant to be and you just have to let go.

3. The best kind of friend is the kind you can sit on aporch swing with, never say a word, and then walk awayfeeling like it was the best conversation you've ever had.

4. It's true that we don't know what we've got until we loseit, but it's also true that we don't know what we've beenmissing until it arrives.

5. It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, anhour to like someone, and a day to love someone-but ittakes a lifetime to forget someone.

6. Don't go for looks, they can deceive. Don't go for wealth,even that fades away. Go for someone who makes yousmile because it takes only a smile to make a dark dayseem bright.

7. Dream what you want to dream, go where you want to go,be what you want to be. Because you have only one life andone chance to do all the things you want to do.

8. Always put yourself in the other's shoes. If you feel that ithurts you, it probably hurts the person too.

9. A careless word may kindle strife. A cruel word may wrecka life. A timely word may level stress. But a loving word mayheal and bless.

10. The happiest of people don't necessarily have the bestof everything they just make the most of everything that comesalong their way.

11. Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, ends witha tear. When you were born, you were crying and everyonearound you was smiling. Live your life so that when you die,you're the one smiling and everyone around you is crying.

its mid-week

hope you're having a blast!

xoxos!

2009-05-19T11:03:00.002+08:00

She wants to love him, ready to give up everything, to be there when he calls

He wants to live life,see the whole world

Love don't come easy at all

Well i've been there like you before and i know how it feels when they walk out that door

When a heart is broken you feel like giving up living like a prisoner

Convicted of love

When you know it's over it's like a shot in the dark

Trying to find your way back to the start, he wouldn't let her hold him back

So he set off on his way but she hoped he found the joy he was searching for

She stayed and she cried a while then decided to move on cause she knew in life

She deserved much more see only time can heal her pain Lord,

i pray that she won't make those mistakes again

We all have our separate needs our separate wants from life

but if you love somebody see you both have to compromise

Try to work it out find a way to make things right If you don't wanna lose in love

If you don't want a broken heart

2009-05-18T08:40:00.002+08:00

hello hello!!

the weekends flew by too damn fast don't y'all think?

for me the weekends was filled with too much chilling out,fun and a lot of other stuffies

i didnt see Nur Hanis Insyirah during the weekends as it was too jam pack for her

but at least she tried

hopefully we'd be meeting this weekend for movie at her place that till i get the t.v and all in my roomies

guess who came over yesterday CAMILE well she came to just hang out so camile, my sister and myself, stayed home and had out girls day home gossiping and all. it was nice but missing Hanis la

and now its monday how the monday blue is setting in.dammit!

i am still sleepy, well at least there is something to look forward to saturday i am finally meeting mal and hanis and we can act like fools like the old times

haziq left for hongkong, its sad and i know he'll enjoy it cause' i sure as hell did when i was there

but thankfully he met us before her left we chilled by the pool with drinks, music and too much gossiping la

to my dearest sister Freda Kay Ibrahim

this is for you

the minute mum put your fragile body in my hands i knew that i'd have to protect you from any harm or hurt for the rest of your life

the minute somebody bullied you and i heard about it i knew something had to be done to the ballacks that bullied you

the minute somebody breaks your heart i knew i had to be there for you just to hold you and watch you cry and even cry with you, cause honey i can't go around beating people cause the broke your heart.but i can sit there and listen to you talk about it, it never really heals but you'll pull through you always do

143(i love you sweetheart)

to my brother Farrel Brian Ibrahim

i love you and thank you for everything you have done to proctect me the way we made a pact to protect da-da,

you'll always be my brother, the one i look up to and to me there will never be anyone lady good enough for you, you been hurt before who hasnt, but i love the fact that you're stronger and you never give up no matter how many times you fall,

sometime i know i dont show you but deep down inside of me i am proud of who you have become

know what the stakes are and what your expected to be

you don't let that get to you, you stick by what you believe

i love you always will and always have,

143 ( i love you brather)

to my friend Nur Hanis Insyirah Bte Razali

we've known each other for so long, been thru alot of ups and downs,

when i can't sleep your the one who knows what to do, when i am hurt you know how to make me laugh (and not without chicken wings ok),when i am happy you share in my happiness and you're always proud of me no matter what stupid things i do,

we know life hasnt been all that easy lately but we stuck it out and the clouds are clearing up and we can see light shining thru

we have so many plans love,lets do it together, we're like dolce and gabbana honey,

i know i dont tell you or show you that i love you ever so often but once in a while one must take time to acknowledge the love for the people in their live

143(i love you Gabbana)

y'all have a good monday ya here

2009-05-15T09:33:00.005+08:00

Say the words, played the part.

Gave the world and plus my heart.

Did it all with a smile on my face

Gave you love,mind and soul.

thought that it was mutual.

I see now that that wasn't the case

P.S: The bestie is comming over and we're gonna have a candlelight picnic i'm cooking

have a good weekend! <3!

2009-05-14T13:37:00.005+08:00

Life is an adventure, it keeps getting scarier and scarier
But then again how do we gain experience if not through, trials and tribulations

I can honestly say that in my life there were a lot of trial and tribulations, but it has made me the strong headed person I am today, am I proud of that? Heck yeah!

I don’t have to be a bizillionaire to enjoy life, I have a handful of friends that makes my day, the most awesome-est. family in the wholewide world
Yes money is important but a wise friend taught me that family is most important.
Lets pig out and watch movies again
Another wise friends once asked me was is worth it to give up what you did for him/her?
It made me think, I’ve had a lot of regrets, giving that up was the biggest regret of my life

Sometimes in life things happen and we cannot change it nor can we do anything about it but just make the best of it, some people are consumed by jealousy and rage and everything else that it makes them look really ugly, I don’t hate them but I feel for them, yes it their choice to be consumed by that but we as their friends should not let them be that way,

On a much healthier note.

I have honestly just love running and cycling especially after a long and tiring day at work it just releases the tension and let you feel light and refresh again

And I have also cut down on most of the sugar that I like, so after a long time I cooked
Pineapple and shrimp curry yesterday, which was delicious, not as good as my Mama Lus
But it was good,

I did something’s to hanis’s blog she was so bloody gatal, my goodness….but I still love you la, you know my deepest darkest secret and I know yours.. and if ever anything happens to me you must come save me ok or you know what will happen
Hanis, I miss Isaac can we bring him out soon please but no balloons please so he won’t crawl on the floor

I can’t wait for Sunday. I am going to meet Zarith, I want to hear updates love, I know la not syiok telling story via text but what to do. I miss you la.

The time has come for change and now we move forward and not look back.

2009-05-08T13:13:00.002+08:00

this week has flown pass a wee bit to fast

here's a quick update on whats happening

so far this year or the start of this year has really thought me alot

i mean it wasnt at all what i expected but i am glad with the way things are at the moment

this blog use to be my source of rantings but due to large amount of comments for other

i have decided that i will only use this blog for certain rantings

and leave the rest for somewhere else

its mothers day on sunday and hell i have no idea what to get for my mum

this pass 3 months i have never felt happier or more at peace and relaxed with myself

somehow i have become a home bum(only on weekends la)

but i have been thinking about the future and everything else.

i have come to a conclusion that i wanna go back and study somemore

i've been looking at a few schools and the courses that they have

so my fingers are crossed to make my damn mind up soon

2009-05-07T15:00:00.000+08:00

blackberry bold is the sex

hanis lets get it please!

2009-05-05T21:39:00.001+08:00

shoutout to the most patient, beautiful and precious woman in my life

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!!

2009-04-29T12:45:00.006+08:00

Greeting.
So how have all of you all been?

I have been pretty ok of late, just some of my afternoon ranting, a lot of things and feelings that I just have to get off my chest,
Of late I can’t help but feel that life is just passing me by and I am not making the best of it all, I damn bloody well think its about time I take things into my own hands and change certain parts of my life, only a few of my friends will know what those changes are and Hanis you and me we got to change a shit lot of stuff too…
You know what I mean

We aren’t 16 anymore babe, we’re turning 21 soon and there is so much we have to do and not so much time left, we been through so many rough patches in our lives and even more being friends. But look at us now, growing up working and all that jazz, damn I want to go back to those care free days,

So getting back to what I was saying in the beginning,
ever feel like you’re not appreciated?
To me sometimes I try and not let the little things get to me but then again doesn’t it depend on who the person that is saying or doing that little thing is to me?
There are days when all I want to do is to stay in bed. Why? It’s a familiar place so warm and safe. It’s the same that day when I was super bloody bored at home, so I headed to the besties house and chilled we watched a movie and then the besties rents’ went out so we had the whole house to ourselves munching away
As weird as it was, we felt like we were living on our own and together only thing missing was our walk-in-wardrobe and my sister

Well that’s all I can kinda think about right now.

here's a peek into our home

our living room

our walk in wardrobe

my sister room

hanis bedroom

and lastly my room

well girls can dream can't we?

2009-04-15T08:39:00.000+08:00

Wake up to a sunny day, not a cloud up in the sky, Then it starts to rain, my defenses hit the ground

And they shatter all around, so open and exposed

I found strength in the struggle, Face to face with my trouble

When you're broken in a million little pieces

And you're trying but you can't hold on anymore

Every tear falls down for a reason

Don't you stop believing in yourself

When you're broken

Little girl don't be so blue, I know what you're going through

Don't let it beat you up, Hitting walls and getting scars

Only makes you who you are

No matter how much your heart is aching

There is beauty in the breaking

2009-04-11T09:33:00.003+08:00

If I could have just one wish,I would wish to wake up everydayto the sound of your breath on my neck,the warmth of your lips on my cheek,the touch of your fingers on my skin,and the feel of your heart beating with mine...

Knowing that I could never find that feelingwith anyone other than you.

2009-04-09T09:19:00.003+08:00

Everybody's trying to tell me somethin' All about the way to live my life

I don't wanna be nobody's prisoner,chained and sittin' on a couch until I die

Tryin' desperately to be somebody, an independant personality

You're not exactly rollin' the red carpet I've learned I have to fight to be free

I just want to be free to be a woman

Free to do what I choose

Free to feel the way I want and change my attitude, Free to be a woman

Free to have a plan,Free to find the best in life and be all that I can

I don't want no artificial sweetners, I'm lookin' for a man to feed me limes

If you want to check out my body, Well first just show an interest in my mind

2009-04-08T09:06:00.002+08:00

What hurts the most,was being so close

And having so much to say,and watching you walk away

And never knowing,what could have been

And not seeing that loving you,is what I was tryin’ to do

2009-04-07T20:42:00.001+08:00

Oh You gave me a reason

You told me that I'll always be yours

Oh You are my desire

My heart is so on fire for you

I can't stop loving you,Loving you, Cause I don't wanna end up

In your rear view

Wanna be someone you could turn to, I never wanna lose you

No, there's nothing I won't do

So I'll watch you like a movie

I'll sing you like a song

Read you like a story

If it takes me all night long

Keep you like a secretI'll tell you like a joke

It's true

That I'll love youLike I always do

2009-04-07T08:41:00.005+08:00

good morning lovelies

time check: 08.45, and i am in the office shopping online

these are what i wanna get!boyfriend jeans, fedora hats, raybans and a whole lotta others.....

hopefully this weekend i have a lil time for shoppin'

any takers?

on a more serious note.

my life has always been about pleasing people especially my family

and yesterday when i talked to my mum and when the tears came i didn't know that i was this affected about alot of things..so i just walked away.

betrayal and back-stabbing were some of those things.sometimes i wonder why even bother?then it hits me

i do the things i do because i want to not because i wanna gain credit

and like i said how many more times am i gonna have to give them chances,but i do because if i don't forgive no ones gonna forgive me in the future.

i wanna re-do saturday all over again!!!

*winks winks*

2009-04-04T11:52:00.001+08:00

yay the weekends are here again

i am gonna enjoy every moment!!!

so here's an update on whats happening with me

life:

in general its all good thankfully

works been hectic

friends are also busy and we don't meet as much as we'd like too

but what to do

family:

all are alive and kicking and enjoying life

everything else will happen when it does.

well tata

2009-03-29T15:34:00.000+08:00

i believe in second chances

when will i have mine!

i love me i love you

2009-03-20T21:33:00.002+08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long

2009-03-18T10:52:00.002+08:00

in life i learn that no matter how good you are, or how bold you can be, or how efficient and how smart(street or book)

you're always gonna be compare to that someone better whom everyone loves to love.

and sometimes what people say just to compare you with her/him

in our very own special way, we're different and unique, and until we can wrap our heads around that, we'll go no where.

so don't settle for average, aim as high as possible reach beyond the stars.

and then we'll know our full potential

even when it comes to friends, we always compare

but each friends is different in their own way.

some will suprise the shit outta you when the time comes

and some will just blend in as times goes by.

this week they saying that hit me the most is this

"forgive you brother from you heart"

2009-03-13T21:41:00.001+08:00

Love does not brag. People who are truly in love refrain from rehearsing their good traits just to show off. Bragging in a relationship often is really defensiveness.
People who are truly in love do not insist that their way is best and demand that their mates give in to them.
People who are truly in love are considerate of each others feelings and courteous in their actions toward one another. Sadly sarcasm is a way of life for some couples. They ridicule each other, belittle each other and trade jibes with a fury. They may say it is all in fun, but it leaves wounds that will someday become festering sores.
People who are truly in love look out for their mates' best interests as much as their own. Those in love should be concerned not only about their own individual interests, but about the interests of the other as well.
People who are truly in love control their anger when the other displeases them. We are all human, and all humans feel anger periodically, but we only express our anger in destructive ways when we counting on someone else to meet our needs.
People who truly love each other do not take pleasure in their mates' disappointments or failures.
People who truly love each other treat their mates with absolute trust. Some husbands and wives torment themselves with groundless suspicions. If you look for trouble you will find it every time.
People who truly love look forward to their relationship growing more meaningful and precious. They have hope. Which is an attitude that happily anticipates the good. It isn't being blind and denies there are problems, but it does look beyond the problems. People who truly love each other do not allow their problems to rob them of their happiness.
Remember there is no failure in love, because once you tell somebody who you love, that you love him/her, then you have already succeeded in love.

i was just browsing and came across this.

more personal update commin' up soon

just really tired to type.

happy friday the 13th

2009-03-12T12:12:00.000+08:00

should i follow what my head thinks it's right?

should i follow what my heart says

2009-03-10T10:43:00.000+08:00

I'm single again, back on the prowl

I thought it was perfect, I don't know how

I'm single again, back on the prowl

I thought it was perfect, I don't know how

I'm single again

2009-03-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up: if a boy punches you he likes you, never try to trim your own bangs, and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. every movie we see, every story we're told implores us to wait for it: the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. but sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. how to tell the ones who want us from the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. and maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. maybe the happy ending is just moving on. or maybe the happy ending is this: knowing after all the unreturned phone calls and broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment... you never gave up hope.

2009-02-20T21:23:00.002+08:00

weekends are finally here again

thank goodness

last week was totally awesome

valentines day was just super duper good

besties, friends family everyone that means something to me was there with a few exceptions.

but it was all good.

well i am here in my room updating my blog and chatting online with Hanis and souher

the lovelies exams are gonna be over soon.

i am excited

now i gotta go think about my future,i am not sure whats right and whats not, but i have to think its over damn carefully,

and i saw you again after a while and everything to me is still the same

and now i am confused as hell, but from now i got to start thinking about everything,and damn its gonna be one hell of a tough time thinking but you gotta do what you gotta do.

ever since i was fifteen i had to hustle to get what i want, 6 months without you was really tough,and i screwed up bad,i know that nothing can ever change what i did and how i felt then, but its has made me the way i am today.

i am strong headed and independent,but its all because, i found out the world ain't all good, that was something you had to understand and you gave up,

i forgave you a long time ago.

2009-02-11T21:28:00.001+08:00

drinks, chips, food, good company,a chilled out atmosphere,music and a whole lotta chit chats

whatmore can i ask for.

i am doing it again on friday and saturday!

toodles!

2009-02-02T14:35:00.001+08:00

I'm a cool low Jane

with the skip on my feet

I play tough as nails

With my heart on my sleeve

I'm nothing but a sand castle

Baby don't blow me away, away

You're an old school dude

With the kick on ya shoes

You've got groove in ya hands

The way you spend those tunes

I'm nothing but a sandcastle

Baby don't blow me away, away

2009-02-01T20:40:00.002+08:00

it never seems to amaze me that some people aren't happy being themselves and always tries being someone else, it reminds me of the saying"the grass is greener on the other side"

i mean c'mon stand proud of who you are and be original, i mean just cause you hang out with whiteboys doesn't mean your white, why blend in when you can stand out and be yourself without compromising..your not a bad person and i definately have nothing against you but sometimes your actions and attitudes make you look really ugly

then again honey its your life,do what makes you happy and and look at what your doing and the other party that you so do not like is doing the same damn thing.

on a definately much lighter note,the week was a lil hectic but then again its all worth it, chinese new year was a little different this year, more laughter all caught on camera.

the only reason why i am writing a proper entry is cause ms Souher salah Sayad Wahba was saying that i need to write about my life nt some saying or part of some lyrics or something so this is to you Ms JUICY APPLEBOTTOMS!

friday and saturday was hanging out with the bestie super duper fun and we had a cool baby ISSAC

thats my entry for the 1st day of the 2nd month of the new year!

2009-01-19T18:32:00.002+08:00

hello people.

so its almost the ending of a beautiful sunny monday

the weekends were pretty alright nothing much happen or rather nothing interesting happen

Sun comes up moon goes down

Heaven shine all around

It feels my heart and moves my soul

Because loving him is better than gold

In his arms dreams comes true

And in his eyes the world is new

Diamonds beam and yes silver glows

But loving him is better than gold

He came my way when hope was gone

I never knew I could love so strong

I've walked some lonely roads before

But now I search no more

2009-01-16T13:39:00.001+08:00

Comparisons are easily done
Once you've had a taste of perfection
Like an apple hanging from a tree
I picked the ripest one
I still got the seed

You're like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy

With a surprise center

How do I get better

Once I've had the best

You said there's

Tons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

2009-01-12T20:22:00.001+08:00

here is something oh so true! :-)

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Commitment Even though it may not always seem like it, deep down you are afraid of being committed to anything serious. You love the feeling of being carefree and not having anything tying you down. You're afraid that someone or something that may tie you down in life, will keep you from reaching other goals. You may also be afraid of getting hurt. You need to open yourself up more to possibilities and realize that sometimes it's good to be committed to something that you really care about. Just because you're an independent, free-spirited person doesn't mean that being committed to anything is going to change who you are.
Disappointment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Death
Being Alone
Losing Someone
http://www.gotoquiz.com/what_is_your_true_fear">What is your True Fear? http://www.gotoquiz.com/">Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

2009-01-12T20:05:00.002+08:00

life pretty much seems much lighter and happier for the moment

time has come for me to shine,

2008 was bumpy and now the road is finally smooth,

the clouds are fading and the sun is starting to shine

nothing can get in my way

hongkong was relaxing and it taught me alot and i found so much stuff out

i love holidays it just refreshes you

p.s:i forgave you and i am pretty glad your still my friend

2009-01-11T19:44:00.004+08:00

greeting.

firstly Happy New Year,

so its 2009 and right about now i am having the time of my life

even with my birthday,i spent it with all my favourit people,

bring in the New Year with Hanis and everything was perfect right from the begining

so i had my International Marketing Paper yesterday morning,which marks the 4th year i and hanis have been friend

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts, or fears.

But I can listen to you, and together we will search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,nor the future with its untold stories.

But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.

I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;

Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;

I can only support you, encourage you,and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship, from your values, from me.

I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you

,But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,

But I can cry with you and help you pick up the pieces

and put them back in place.

I can't tell you who you are.

I can only love you and be your friend.

happy 1461 days to us baby!!!!
that kinda all i have to say

2008-12-27T09:53:00.000+08:00

And it's clear to me that everything has changed

Cuz nothing that we do feels the same any more

And I'll admit, I'll take the blame

Maybe we just moved too fast

And how could expect something like this to last

And I know that you will try and prove me wrong

But it's what I gotta doI think you're mistaken, I'm sorry to say

I'm really just a loser who's getting in your way

I think you've forgotten all of your plans

See you never meant to be here and I think you should know

You're better off alone

on a lighter note

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE

2008-12-17T22:54:00.002+08:00

I smiled enough

I flirted enough

I posed enough

Got freaky enough

Took pictures enough

Conversated enough

I sipped enough

I got enough

I see a cute boy chilling in some jeans and Tims

I think i like him and i just might leave this club with him

And his swagger tight, i'm feeling the tattoos on him

Make me wanna, wanna, wanna got with him

VIP like "Hey"

Dissing with my girls like "Hey"

Then i call him off to meet meI couldnt resist,

so sexy

DJ get on the mic

And make them ... from the front to the rear

Yall ain't gotta go home

but you gotta get the hell up outta here

I drank enough

I danced enough

I partied enough

I sweated enough

I stuttered enough

I flossed enough

I snapped enough

Two step enough

Now I want this awesome woman up in this club

And i like her and I wanna leave this club with her

Ever since the mama broke it down to the floor

I say she ready she ready she ready to go, to go

Then i got behind her like "hey"

She pushed it on me like "hey"

And she ain't scared to get dirty

Even though she's so pretty purdy

DJ get on the mic

And give us head from the front to the rear

Yall ain't gotta go home

but you gotta get the hell up outta here

Baby won't you take me out of this club

I wanna be with you

Baby let me take you out of this club

I make your dreams come true

Baby won't you take me out of this club

I wanna be with you

Baby let me take you out of this club

I make your dreams come true

OUR THEME SONG BABYGIRL!!!!

I LEAVE TOMORROW SO I'LL BE MISSIN' YOU LOVELEH!!!!

SEE YOU WHEN I GET BACK!

2008-11-26T20:54:00.002+08:00

Hey hey so it’s the end of the weekends,which has been totally fabulous!

Not much happened,

So my cousins wedding was on Saturday the 15th which was kick ass,we had the ceremony at the Armenian church and was so beautiful and there were tears all over the place, and the reception was held at AQUA by grandstand,which was even more kick ass,all the family was there having a ball!so after AQUA closed,we(darren, leona,nanu,mum,dad,myself and some others whom I forgot the names) went club hopping,and we ended up at AZZUCAR salsa bar dancing the night away. Mum dad and myself left at ard 4 430 for home.

Thursday was my sister schools concert, me and my mum was a lil later,so we went it in to video the whole performance,and then we were told no video or photography,but somehow we manage to take some videos,after that ana,mus,hanis,camillie,my sister,my mum and myself headed to simpang bedok, ate laughed and chit chatted away, then we all went our separate ways,me hanis camille my sister and my mum went to pick my brother up from bedok camp and headed home, Hanis and camille headed home,and I came home and slept,

me and and my sister ana and mus headed to east coast on Friday, hanged out at east coast, and we walked around and chatted the night away,then on Saturday we hanged out at parkway!
All in all the weekends were awesome!!

Time passed so fast and life has brought me to a place where I have always wanted to be,yet the way life is going isn’t the way some expected,I understand.
Sometimes I myself really dnt understand what the hell is going on,its too confusing,some I don’t think i wanna try anymore,sometimes it isnt easy as it seems,it takes a shitload of hardwork and I have worked damn hard to let things go astray
The last time I saw you,it didn’t feel right at all,so now whether your in or out you decide,I am moving on now to bigger and better things,I swear I don’t mean to sound mean or cocky but that the situation now,

Its funny how life can turn very unexpectedly but then again,the thrill of not knowing what’s gonna happen and when it’s gonna happen is just damn interesting, like a kick ass movie or series that you’re hooked and can’t get away from.hahaha

Ok its official I am hooked on Samurai Girl.

As of this moment I am loving my november and decembers!!!!!! Hanis should be coming over next week to help me clean up my room!!!yay I have help!

I started gyming again!which seems pretty fantastic. And I get to spend time with my dad both exercising together

Alls plan and I am filled with excitement about it!nothing can spoil my day today
Not even you!!i am done wasting my time I knew this was coming only a matter of time,thanks

most of the pictures are on facebook

2008-11-12T14:01:00.002+08:00

Hey, yeahI used to think

Being like you

Was the key to having everything

Every dream come true

I used to think

Following the crowd

Was the only thing that I could do

Until I found out

I'm OK

Sometimes you have to do your own thing

Every winter turns to spring

And everybody's got their own wings

The little girl you knew

The one who never stood up to you

Who kept her silence to long

Well she's gone with the wind

And now I'm standing my ground

And who I am and for that I'm proud

And the girl that you knew

Well she's gone with the wind

I'm speaking out

My conscious is clear

And I don't care what anybody thinks
I still fear less fear

And I don't have to be

What you want me to be

Cause every time I try to fit inIt feels like I'm unappealing

I'm OK

Sometimes you have to do your own thing

Every winter turns to spring

And everybody's got their own wings

2008-11-11T23:01:00.005+08:00

here are pictures from saturday outing from the lovely Sou to the her!!!!

2008-11-11T12:07:00.007+08:00

So here is an entry for this special blog of mine,in which it is clooecting dust,hehe
Things have been really hectic,with the exams stress and the mugging and the wedding coming up, thankfully the exams are over,and now its time to sit unwind and relax and enjoy what’s left of 2008.

Honestly I amd really glad that this year is coming to an end,not to sound ungrateful or anything, but the things I learnt,
I leant that I can survive on my own,
I leant who my true friends are,
I learnt to stand on my own two feet
I learnt that trust has to be earned and nothing is free,
I learnt what the true meaning of love is,
I learnt that unexpected people can be your friend,
I learnt that my family is the most important and their happiness is my pirority
I call the shots in my life
And I also learnt that god I great,and that whatever I do I do it for me myself and I

Life has been the most unexpected of late and I am just loving it all and soacking it all up
So much things have happen and yet I still cant sit and write a proper entry.

But I will write what happened during the weekedns
Friday was my last paper in the morning,then I went home chilled and tried to sleep for a bit as the plan that night was to head out and unwind but that didn’t happen,
Why?
Because I became lazy and decided to just sit and have coffee with the mum and sister,we headed to the beach for a very relaxing night.

Saturday was hanging out with the besties
Souher(like finally),ana,mus,haziq and hanis.
Haziq came to pick me up at about 3.30 then we headed to forum to surprise Souher baby,chilled,talked caught up,planned our player rules,which I thought was super funny,cute and awesome.
Then me and haziq went to meet hanis at coffeebean,waited for ana and mus come then we chilled somemore till Souher came.after that we all headed to Simpang Bedok to watch the
MAN U v.s ARESENAL
(the results were a lil dissapointing)
After the match we all headed home,as soons as I walked into my room I took off my make up showered and crashed,

Sunday,got up chilled around for a while, got a texted from the cousin Lorraine saying that there was the wedding rehersal at the Armenian church at 4,
so I went to the Grandfathers house had lunch,then went to sent my sister to Toa Payoh for practice,
then mum,dad,the brother and myself headed to Grand Plaza Park Hotel after that I crossed the road to the church had the Rehersal,after the rehersal Leona(the bride),Nanu and Darren headed to the Grandfathers house again chilled and gossiped and laughed a lot till about 9.45 then we headed home and crashed.

more pictures on Facebook!

2008-10-01T02:03:00.003+08:00

WISHING ALL MUSLIMS OUT THERE

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!

its been a while hasn't it,so here a lil something something,

school has been awesome,with a few mishaps here and there but all's well

life been pretty awesome lately,i have some new friends caught up with some old ones,

the family is even more lovely then ever,

what more could i ask for?

there are so many pictures to upload and ya i have the time to post them on facebook,but i am just being plain lazy,

i honestly cannot stand boys who are egoistic i mean why try and impress me,i like you for who you are not what you have,and why be mean and put other down,at least they are earning an honest living,maybe they arent as fortunate as you but still doesn't mean you can look down on them-this just bugs the living daylights out of me!

drama drama and more drama seems to be happening around me,why?beats me,i just shrug it off and move on,

nights by the pool with my bestie and her boyfriend are love,playing in the pool brings back so much memories,

so the day after Hari Raya is my sister's 17th birthday

i am still not sure of whats happening then,as i'll be having a full day of lessons and school

so dinner should be a nice way to rewind

the besties might be heading over to my place on friday to chill

well i guess thats it for now!

toodles

2008-09-25T01:28:00.001+08:00

guess its about time that im finnaly moving on

I dont really care if its right or wrong

And in spite of the way i love your touch

You know its gonna be better for both of us

It hurts like hell but i got to try

You already know the reason why

So no matter whos right or wrong

I think its finallly time that im moving on

Dont tell me i should stay Its too late now

To think we can make this work somehow

You should know the truth

Its over and done i cant believe

All of this time youve had me thinking

Thinking you would call me late night

Knowing damn well you wouldnt do it

Telling me i was still on your mind

I dont know why you had to put me through it

And im thinking im still livin for your love

It was all over and you knew it

Although its gonna be hard to let this go

this is something i gotta do

2008-09-18T22:06:00.006+08:00

well so many things have been happening of late and time seemed to have zoomed past like a flaming lamborghini

exams finally ended,and then it was time to party and let loose,with tanya ryan a couple moe people

the next day it was coffee with ana and bitching session and some shopping,i learnt alot and really heard a lil bit of truth from what ana said,thanks for listening to me

sunday was lunch over at Grams house with all the cousins, cathching up and just hanging out,and since grams needed help i voulnteered to come early and help out which was nice,i love my grammy wammy!

this week was monday headed to the office did some stuff and then home with the Gramsm,afternoons with her are the bestest!

tuesday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRAMS!!!!

i love you,without you nothing in life is ever worthwhile

you have taught and mold me into the women i have become

you have taught me the meaning of life and most of all,with all my flaws you loved me unconditionally,thru your actions and sometimes your words

I LOVE YOU MAMA!

wednesday

HAPPY 2 YEARS BABYGIRL!!

see we're still standing my love!!!

lunch with souher, finally after eeeons of not meeting we finally met up,we'll be meeting for dinner again on friday!!!i can't wait for tomorrow!

then 3 hours of Karaoke-ing with hanis and ana,then headed to Siglap Centre to chill with a friend,and home

Today

was just lazing and haning out at home with movies and snacks

You left without a single word

Not even sorry

It might've hurt worse to hear you sayI'm leaving, goodbye

But your smile still makes my heart sing

Another sad song

I can't forget it

I won't regret it

Cause I'm still in love with you

2008-09-14T21:36:00.002+08:00

NURIZZA BTE SAMAT

what can i say about you my dearest friend

so many years have passed since secondary school

yet despite whatever the world throws at us we still remain closer as ever

ice lemon teas,colourful bread,our reccess talks about almost rubbish

laughing in the middle of no where

life for us has change,god has blessed us with so much and i m thankful i still have you in my life

I LOVE YOU MUCH MUCH!!!!

2008-09-02T00:07:00.002+08:00

where do i begin with all that is happening?

this week is study week yet i managed to squeeze partying on saturday,super fun and awesome i havent felt,danced,act or drink like that in ages, and i wanted to dance the night away, i came home drank water and slept amazingly just for 3 hours,woke up headed out for lunch and shopping and then came home and lazed around the rest of the day

it made me for one night forget all the memories or thoughts of you in my mind,we were together for a short while,the people that mattered to me cared for and loved you,until this day they all ask about you,i just tell them you're fine and busy

no matter how many beautiful clothes or how flawless my make up is,or how wide my smile is,you'd never been able to see it,in my eyes you're the only one that counts

you loved my for my imperfections,you were the only one whom saw me sleep and thought i was the cutest thing ever,the only one whom i wake up too smilling for ear to ear,the only one reassuring me that life has to take it's course when it come to certain thing,and also that you'll be there for me

i know relationship is give-n-take

i guess you gave and gave till you cant give no more,

why could you be straight up with me?

i live and i love all my life,fending for myself and my happiness

no one can say they did it for me,no one can tell me i am a fake

never dream all will come tumbling down,now i am back at one making my mistakes,

making my legacy,building my life they way i want it to be

but you came in my life giving me the inspiration i need,

you taught me things i never dream possible,

you made what i thought was important before seem like a passing cloud,

maybe the timing wasnt for us,i hope and i pray soon will be our time to shine,

i keep the memory of you close to my heart

hoping one day i feel your skin against mine,

i'd give up eveything to have the moment you stared into me eyes back again

thanks for all you have taught and been to me boo!

lets "bump" into each other soons

2008-08-31T23:06:00.012+08:00

this week has been an amazingly blessed week,from the presentations,to the partying,to the time spent on the revision questions and eveything,i am happy and might blog in details soons

here are some pictures

2008-08-24T20:38:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABYGIRL!!

we made it this far with shitloads of rubbish and argument and all the mumbo jumbo

on your special day i am glad we're where we are right now

i love you and have a blessed birthday(or whats left of it)

raindrops on my nose,i feel free like a bird,soaring but yet still looking at what i left behind,feelings emotions,pain we all feel it yet we just keep going on and on till one day we just fall,filled with aches and soars and just plain tired,

on a much happier note Death Race was bombdigity!!!!!

2008-08-19T21:17:00.003+08:00

weekends was da bomb!
riding in the bus with an awesome book and nice music,
time passes so fast when you're in a world of romance and a world of my own
love comes when it comes,while waiting we'll enjoy,sipping pina coladas,on a beach in cabo,san luca,enjoying the sun shining on your face,the the wind through you hair,

thats all!

2008-08-12T18:59:00.004+08:00

on a cold winter day just like this,

pictures with the close loved warm fuzzy friend, just seem to be more that any warmth coffee or hot chocolate can bring

its funny how i myself can be,one moment i can be all sad and depressed(but not joker depressed) and the next all hyped and ready to go,

today i got up feeling the coldness of the air,rain seem to just stop,the air smelling fresh the wind against my hair and my face,all seem so relaxing,

and school today was suprisingly better than expected,somehow all seem to work out,now i have tutorial tomorrow and presentation soons,and its gonna be a full day,hopefully the movie after will be nice,

my heart has healed since the begining of the year,i am truly glad that we're friends now,

and nothing spoilt my day,i had tea,donuts,and all in all everything is awesome,

now imma go back to aoki william!(this name is triple sex)

ya dig!